the last place we left off

people annoy me sometimes.
I'm not entirely anti-social. though Ive done nothing this weekend, but Ive decided that some people are pretty stupid.
take my best friend S. i love him, more than he knows, but he has these habits that really do piss me off. I'm sure he's an undiagnosed depressive, but he's got there problems, i'm sure he has. he found out he had dyslexia and went ito a 'i cant do it, im dumb' and i tried a million times to tell him that who the fuck cares about intelligence? he didnt listen though. and now he's off on a 'all people are twat bags' mood. its so fucking stupid.
by now you should have worked out that i collect the wierd people. the ones who are a but twisted. makes life more interesting when you dont know what theyre going to do next.
the good news is that K has been texting me all day. he's sweet. and funny. and terribly crude. enough about him.
christmas ladies and gentlemen is looming upon us, well, its loomed upon me since fucking september [as i work in a christmas shop].
christmas: a time in which we all drop our problems, spend a stupid amout of money, and pretend that everything is okay, we eat more than we should and watch shit TV programs.
i'm not a humbug. i love christmas, i just hate the nice sugar coating of life that comes with us.
it'd be nice to see christmas before it got really commercialised, before kids expected stupid preasents. god.
you know santa is the biggest lie ever aswell?
but its a nice lie. a magical lie.
as i said, im not a humbug.
its painful to think of christmas without my guinea pig though.
i can use his name in this blog because he is a guinea pig and he's dead. i loved him though. he died on results day.
ive always believed that when one part of your life goes upwards another goes down. and i got my GCSE's, hot footed it over to college to enrol. my dreams coming true before my eyes having worked my ass of for those damn exams and i come home and he's gone. dead.
and you all going 'it was just a guinea pig'
FUCK OFF.
no he wasnt.
i got so attached to the fluff ball.
he used to sit on my bed while i tidied my room, and we used to watch movies together.
okay well, i watched the movie and he raced around under the covers cos he's cool.
and he isnt here anymore.
blah.
i feel shitty now.
ill try and publish a post tomorrow that doesnt rant.